I was sitting here talking to my best friend, and I just realized that we should be grateful for the people we have in our lives while we have them. I lost a very important man in my life five years ago. He wasn't my dad, but he was my father. He built me up, supported me, and loved me. But, now, he is gone. He isn't going to see me walk the stage, graduate college, get married, have kids. But, all I know, is that I am thankful for the ones that are here. My grandmother (his wife), my mom's parents, my dad (who is on the senior side of the age spectrum 50+), and anyone else that is over the age of 45 that is here, are all people that I am thankful are here. I just lost my great grandma not too long ago. I was thankful that she at least saw me finish high school. She doesn't get to see me walk the stage, but that is one thing that I hate. She saw the action, but not the result. But, when you put thought into it, you realize that you are either lucky or stupid not to appreciate these people, and if they have done you wrong, reconcile. You and they only live once. And, if you feel as though you can never forgive them, think twice. Think long and hard before you alienate them, because you never know when you'll need them.
Being a young human being is hard. Having to put other people first is hard. My life has never been easy. Between the parenting fails to the relationship blows, it is never easy. I have had a thing with my family, where it has always been hard to talk to them. It has always been hard to be open with people who are never there. But, now I realize I need them the most. I need them the most after eighteen years. My story has a lot of heartache, happiness, betrayal, and, most of all, hurt. My name is Renee Fawn, and if you want to know I will tell you about my life. From the first memory I have, all the way to every memory that has been drilled into my head after the years between the family, the friends, and the parents. It isn't all good, but not all bad either. Right now, it couldn't be a better time to start telling my story. It couldn't be a better time to let me start writing about anything and everything, my stories and poems. I guess, we can get started.
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